As I approach my 30th birthday (feel free to send presents. I like pretty things. ) I’ve been seriously considering getting a tattoo. On my hand, of all places. Something small and delicate, but a tattoo nonetheless.
People who know me would be likely to burst out laughing/stare at me in horror if I told them I wanted a tattoo. Indeed, one of my dearest friends told me it would be “the most shocking thing” I could do. I’m just not the kind of girl who gets tattoos. I’m clean cut, I’m innocent, I’m a good girl. Or at least that’s the perception most people have of me. Usually based on how I look, I think. I often feel that my image doesn’t match my personality – or that I rein in my personality to match my image. A tattoo would be a way of displaying my true personality on the outside.
Because deep down, I feel like I am the kind of girl who gets tattoos. I think. Or at least, I want to be. So if I get a tattoo will I be that kind of girl? Or still me, pretending to be that kind of girl?
The sensible part of me knows that I should only get a tattoo for me – not just to prove something to other people. The fact that I want the tattoo on my hand, suggests that maybe that isn’t the case. If it was just for me I would have it somewhere more discrete, surely?
On the other hand (no pun intended), I want it somewhere visible so that I can see it whenever I want reminding of it. I want it to be something that motivates me when I look at it – reminds me that actually I am stronger and more ballsy, than people give me credit for. Than I give myself credit for. Because I think that’s really the point. I want a tattoo to prove a point to myself more than to other people. If I want to be the kind of girl that gets tattoos, I can be. That power is in my hands. And to have a permanent reminder of that on my hand, would be quite fitting, I think.
I wrote this post to help me make up my mind, and I’m still not sure I know the answer. I’m sure I would feel at least a small element of regret either way. But the thought of getting a tattoo excites me. And do you know what? I think I might just do it.
Watch this space…